In sight or inside?

So, at this time, I finally discovered that hell, just like heaven, can be not just in our sight, but inside of us. And it hurts. Hurts a lot. I fell tired, lost and completely broken. Anyway, I know that's just the beginning, that's not the moment to complain, not yet. I'll suffer. Just like I was doing those days. Now I can fell they so close, sooo close. Bumping in me in a way that make me fall. I'm still falling. I'm still breaking my heart. I'm still a heartbreaker. And I'm so sorry about that, but I can do nothing. That's the monster who I've always been. The same monster that I'll continue being. Forever.